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Time
stopped. And before me, eternity unfurled its cerulean firmament.
I heard not a sound, not even the whisper of a random thought…
My eyes had panned back from the limitless blue expanse when my
mind noted the strangeness of seeing my skis stabbing the sky.
Just a moment before they shushed firmly against the packed white
snow. Now, I realized, I was airborne – and upside-down.
I had taken too wide of a turn off of the quad chairlift and unwittingly
missed the intermediate slope. Instead of guiding me down the
scenic route, the mountain jettisoned me off of its shoulder onto
a cliff rippling with mammoth icy moguls. I launched like a rocket
as I careened off of the first wall of ice.
Seeing the sky below me was not good news. “You’re
about to die,” it said. Then, reasoning kicked in: If I
were to increase my chances of survival, I needed to throw off
my poles and position my skis to release upon the inevitable collision
with the mountain. Yet my gloves were frozen to the leather pole-straps
and I couldn’t shake them loose. In a moment I would discover,
too, that one of the ski bindings was set much too tight to release
on impact. But then, flipping backward again and again as I sailed
through space, I knew.
Like a flash of lightning, knowing illuminated my mind: If I were
to live, I had to prepare to die. I could no longer try to control
life; I had to let go. Then, surrendering to what was unfolding,
I put my faith in that which gives all. That’s when it happened.
Time stopped and I had all the time in the world.
In eternity, the snow-covered cliff of a slope reached out to
me for a dangerous rendezvous. Immediately upon our meeting, I
heard the splintering of poles, the snapping of pole straps, and
the shattering of skis. Witnesses reported later that I left a
wake of debris as I tumbled head over heels for more than three-quarters
of a mile down that treacherous mountainside – and stopped
six inches short of a massive evergreen. Miraculously, I walked
away without a scratch.
It’s been the same every time I’ve encountered death
just around the bend: Whether my car was spinning out of control
down a stretch of black ice on a mountain road with a sheer granite
wall on one side and a cliff on the other or I was stranded 70
feet under the sea, hypothermic and unable to put my air regulator
back in my mouth – the passage of time ceases. Even when
death did catch up with me and held me in its grip for a spell,
during a heart attack, for me, time stood still. That’s
how it’s been whenever I’ve stepped from mortal into
eternal life.
Many of us now, however, have so much to do and so little time
in which to do them. We may find, for example, that even though
Internet, satellite, and cell technologies have sped things up
immeasurably in our lives, we end up being overwhelmed with so
much and experience having less time! We are redlining our engines
yet we never seem to catch up. What’s behind this experience?
Humanity is awakening as never before. Yet the more conscious
we become of the underlying oneness and peace of spirit, the more
disturbed we seem to get at first. Our perception has difficulty
reconciling unity. It’s impossible for us to perceive oneness
separately. Yet if we recognize that there is only oneness, then
we can no longer justify our own individual existence. As we consider
the essential unity of our being, the gap in our consciousness,
created from our perception, starts to close rank. As the distance
between perceiver and perceived shrinks, and the mind turns increasingly
toward eternity, time begins to feel both exponentially faster
in movement and shorter in duration. As long as we cling to what
our mind perceptions dictate, we cannot realize our unity and
true fulfillment. Yet the moment we relinquish our holdings, we
enter into the wholeness of spirit and discover the eternal peace
intrinsic to our being. Then, time stops for us. And eternity
takes over.
It is our dying that ultimately silences the ticking of time and
opens the portal to eternal life. Yet our dying isn’t the
death of mere mortal bodies, the cessation of heart or brain activity.
Rather, we die by awakening to our true spirit nature and by surrendering
our attachments to the ever-changing conditions of the world and
our mind.
Time is the “tick-tock” of the pendulum of consciousness.
It requires a pair: perceiver and perceived. Without the two,
there is no time. Herein lies our constant “battle to the
death” in our earthly, mortal life. We cannot help but to
move bit-by-bit toward an eventual face-to-face with our Maker
– or at least with something major of which we know nothing.
If “I” am “me” and “you” are
“not me,” when we are confronted with unity, our self-preservation
instinct dictates that one of us has to go! In fact, in separation,
we perceive oneness as “not me.” And, “one of
us has to go” means, that “not me” has to go.
Even though we may believe we are whole-heartedly aspiring toward
oneness, peace and harmony, more often than not, when we actually
have a showdown with oneness, we fight or we flee. Our self-preservation
initially kicks in.
Instinctively, we tend to recoil at the threat of the unknown.
It may or may not hurt us, but we don’t know for sure. And,
when we feel pain, we want to run from it or make it go away.
Ultimately, our fear of becoming nothing keeps us wanting to separate,
if only to remain being something. We endlessly devise strategies
for keeping separate: Judging, blaming, expecting, competing,
favoring, self-pitying, and so on. We try to be better, right,
or special. Through whatever form, we try to separate and in so
doing end up resisting life.
As souls, we must learn to die correctly if we are to claim our
immortality. This requires us to regularly practice letting go
of our resistance, of our desire to separate. We can choose to
forgive ourselves of our clinging to or pushing away anything:
Thoughts, feelings, memories, beliefs, judgments, blame, or whatever
conditions in which we find ourselves. Forgiving is a choice we
make to let go of our fear in favor of the certainty that there
is nothing to fear, that all is, and that in truth, there is only
love. In forgiveness, two become one – “me-against-you”
becomes us. In realizing the All, the separate become the same.
Life offers us every opportunity to practice dying. Each moment,
we are presented with a choice: To be or not to be. If we choose
to be, we surrender our resistance over to the certainty of being.
If instead we succumb to our fears, we end up by default choosing
not to be. Beholden to the illusion of not being, we fall out
of the grace inherent in eternity. For it is in timelessness that
all is given. In time, however, only dreams are fulfilled. So,
those who wish to fulfill their dreams dream of more time, while
those who awaken from their dreaming realize eternity.
Dying is both an art and a science. It requires much diligence
and practice to master. If we wait to practice dying when we are
on our deathbed, it is too late. Actors and musicians, for instance,
wouldn’t dare postpone rehearsing until show time. Many
of us may not need to rehearse for a theatrical performance, but
we all need much practice if we are to deliver an Oscar-worthy
exit. Remember, every time you choose to accept yourself just
as you are, to love and forgive yourself, and to have certainty
in Divinity, you’ve practiced dying – correctly.

Michael J Tamura awakens souls.
With compassion, humor and wisdom, he heals thousands of people,
helping guide them to their true destiny and life purpose. He
is revered around the world as a master teacher, life coach, visionary,
healer, clairvoyant, and pioneer of spiritual healing and psychic
development. Michael offers innovative and inspirational seminars,
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